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Friday, June 12, 2009

Another time

OK OK TISH!! IM UPDATING THE BLOG NOW!! HEHEHE!
SO PMR YEAR BEEN CHAOTIC SO FAR!! DIDNT EVEN HAVE TIME FOR MYSELF.

And itz a bout to get worst!!! with school, xtra classes (school), tuition , xtra tuition classes, duty... im occupied 4rm mornin til nite!! cant wait till the freakin PMR to be over!!
anyway, i will update soon. im runnin out of time nw. gotta finish off my sejarah n seni projects!

Sunday, April 12, 2009

HEY!!!

HEY HEY HEY!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry havent been blogging for a really longgggggggggg time!!!!!!!!!!!
i've been damn busy!!!!!!!

Anyway, i juz came across this really touching note, it was written by my friend but im not sure if i can post it using her name so i would keep her identity secret. here is it,

Dear X,
I'm writing to you again to congratulate you on the courage of finally confessing to the one you love.I've heard all about it,and right now I know how it feels like,trust me,i've been on the same route.But u have to know that you're not alone.Everytime you tumble,always look behind,i'll be there to pick you up and heal your wounds in my own ways.I may not have the power to stop the blood from the cuts and bruises you have,nor do I have the power to vanish your scars yet I do have the power of healing words.
I know,It's difficult to accept the fact that someone stole your heart,and eventually break it by saying a single NO to you.Again,i've felt that before,although i didn't confess.It hurts so much,and i can't deny that i may look happy on the outside,but on the inside,i'm not always the brighside up.Just the fact that i have the talent of hiding it,which most people don't.Afterwards,i think of the good things in life.he didn't go my way.I look up the sky and say,'well,it's ok'.And you have every right to do so too.Life's short,savour every second of it while you still can.
I can no longer hide it.Yes,i'm jealous of her for stealing your heart.Yes,i'm mad at her for breaking it.However,you have to know this.All these while,you have been keeping my heart locked beside yours ever since the day i fell for you.I can't fix your broken heart,honestly.I don't have that ability but what i want you to do is,keep my heart,forever if you like.Unless you find a new heart,never ever give my heart away to anyone.It's only for you and only you,no one else.

What's important,you don't have to give me your heart back in return if you don't want to.I won't force you.I want you to be happy for your choices,and i will never take control of it in any way possible.I'm your guardian angel,i'm only happy when ur happy,and when ur broken hearted,it's my job to give you my heart for keeping,let myself be left heartless.I shall never fall for anyone as deep as i've fallen for you.I love you that much,deeper than any depths a human being can think of,and higher than any horizons reachable.so smile like you mean it,and take my heart.keep it,and be happy. :) i'll be here,watching you,from a distance........

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Sorry 4 da short post!

First Week of school! Well, itz much more different from last year, but its ok!
I guess changes is something really good....
Anyway, won't be online all that much anymore....
busy...haiz...
sorry for da short post!
Bye!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Keep reading to see if ur an used to be!

Ok! im officially sick of almost everyone in my life! im sorry 4 this trashy mood or blog!
juz venting my feeling/anger here! Therefore this post is going to be dedicated to certain people who used to be a part in my life. wanna knw why used to be? keep reading!
would everyone stop depending on me for once? juz once!
everytime im the one tat have to get everything done! if anything falls apart who'd they look 4?
ME! tatz who! shish! im not saying im not willing to help u but i would love to have someone to depend too when thing's fall apart but nooo everyone will expect me to set things right! itz sick!

And i've also realised some of u guyz hide tis big secret 4rm me to play with my feelings! tatz like beyond sick ok?! and if your reading tis blog (u knw who u r ) then im juz gonna say i dont care anymore! try walking up to me and say u knw me or strike up a conversation! dont expect me to say i knw u or anything! coz from now on i dont and never did! sorry if sound harsh but im not gonna take it anymore! im way more than u the person u think u knw! and itz time u realised tat! tis will be da last time i bring u up in any of my blog or conversation! u guyz are sick and twisted people! i would want to also thank all my real friends who been there for me! thx guys!
and please dont mention anything bout this past two years to me! any event! pls dont!
im trying to forget everything tatz happened! i juz wanna concerntrate on my music and my studies next year (2009). i wanna score 7A and take my band to the next level! TATZ ALL!
no distractions!

And another thing, when i try really hard to do something i've never done before to help u or us and it didnt quite workout, pls dont blame me k? when u act all dissapointed and everything, u got no idea how much it hurts me! i done so much to help or pls u and yet......haiz

I juz wanna let everyone know im done with being pushed around! i tried to be kind to u and i get pushed around instead!!!! next time u wanna do it, u better think twice! coz im not gonna let u!

And if u wanna knw if ur an used to be and are metioned above, here are the signs:
a) i dont text you or call you anymore
b)i dont email you and i delete you from my friend list
c) when i see u i pretend no one's there
d)when u call me i cut ur calls wit no apology
e)when people talk bout u i pretend like i didnt hear

Sorry if i have grammar/language problems, im upset.

By,
Keshika

Saturday, December 20, 2008

2008!!!!

Hey! Decided to start all over! So i deleted all the older posts and starting all over again! Its time for a change! You know like being a better person than before..yada yada..yada.bleh! Anywayz, the year is coming to an! So i figured out it would be cool to post a recap kinda blog for 2008! As a way to remember the year by! Itz been a weird/topsy turvy kinda year! what with da whole betrayals, friendship ending, new friends and blah blah blah. I realised i learned a lot anyway! So here are some photos!